Anna Rebecca Reutter- Our Little Angel in Heaven

It’s with a very heavy heart that I tell you that Anna Rebecca Reutter skipped life on earth and went straight to heaven this morning around 8:00 (7 AM Eastern). We took Ruth into the hospital last night around 2 AM. She was having constant contractions. Everything looked good, Anna’s heart was beating well and everything was set. When Ruth never dilated, they decided it would be best to do a C-section, and so around 8:00 AM the performed the C-section.

Right before the procedure, everything looked good with Anna, in fact there were never any alarms with Anna. But when they brought her out, her lungs were full of fluid and her heart had stopped. I wasn’t in the operation room, by my mother-in-law Becky (a nurse) was in there, and said the amniotic fluid was thick and dark- as if the baby had had a bowel movement in the womb. The doctors worked diligently to try to save her, and we prayed and prayed and prayed and prayed for precious little Anna, but God had other plans, and decided Anna’s presence was needed in heaven.

I was able to hold her afterwards- and she was absolutely beautiful. I can’t describe all the emotions in me right now. I told her several times she was beautiful, I love her, and that I’m really looking forward to heaven even more now, for yet another great reason: to see her.

Ruth’s doing as well as can be expected. We’ve already had tons of visitors and praise God that my parents and Ruth’s parents are here. We can literally feel all the prayers going to heaven on our behalf, and now more than ever we covet all your prayers for us, our mourning, Ruth’s recovery, etc. I have absolute peace in God over this, but this is the biggest whole ever left in my heart. I know God is good and I will never stop declaring his glory or praising Him, no matter what happens in life, because He is our loving Father who gave us his only son Jesus that we might not suffer an eternal death, but enjoy His wonderful loving presence forever and ever. Thank you so much for your loving support.

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  1. Nate, Ruth I don’t have the words. I’m deeply saddened by this. I hope that you are able to keep your spirits high during this difficult time and know that so many hearts and thoughts go out to you.

    Love,

    Justin

  2. Nate and Ruth, we are so incredibly sorry for the loss of your sweet Anna. There are no words that truly can be said and we wish we could just hug you guys right now. Dave and I will be in fervent prayer for you through this time and we pray for the peace that surpasses all understanding as you guard your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus. We’ll share this with the Crosspoint family too, so that they will be in prayer for you as well.
    With all of our love and prayers,
    Dave and Heather Steinbeck

  3. I just heard my friend – I’m overwhelmed with sadness. Prayers are going up for you all over the Quad Cities right now. I don’t know whatelse to say…I don’t understand it, but will pray that God gives you and Ruth the peace that surpasses all understanding.

  4. Nate and Ruth, We just found out a little bit ago. Our heartfelt prayers are with you and your family.

    “I will choose to say, blessed be His Name.”

  5. We are so sad for your loss. May the peace that passes all understanding fill your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus. We are praying for you.

  6. It’s so hard to see the computer screen with wet eyes. We are mourning with you. It’s so hard to understand why. All I know is that God is the same yesterday, today, and forever. Your friends in central Illinois are praying for you–I’ve tried to pass the news along.
    Shari

  7. Nate and Ruth, we are so incredibly aching for the loss of your sweet Anna. There are no words that will do it justice and we want so bad to be able to hug you guys right now. Dave and I have been praying for you since we heard the news from Jeff this morning. Please know that we will continue to lift your family up in prayer through this time. We have notified the Crosspoint body to pray as well. We love you guys and our hearts ache for you as you miss your precious Anna.
    Love, Dave and Heather Steinbeck

  8. Oh man, my heart hurts for you guys. I wish we could be down there to hug you all and just be together. Know that we’re praying for you and love you all! Dave

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  10. We have no words. Our family hurts so deeply for you. You are in our prayers and hearts. We love you dearly. We trust the arms of Jesus hold you tight and fill you with peace that only HE can give.

  11. When there are no easy answers…
    When you are facing something
    you thought you would never have to face…
    When you wonder how you will ever
    pick up all the broken pieces…
    God is there for you!

    Cast all your anxiety on Him; for He cares for you. I Peter 5:7

    So sorry to hear about your loss. We’re praying for you!

  12. Dear Nate and Ruth,
    Our hearts just ache for you and our tears flow right along with yours. What an incredible loss! There really aren’t words, but we know Our Heavenly Father hears our groans and utterings and will wrap His arms around you with His love and comfort. You are in our thoughts and prayers. God never makes a mistake, but we sure don’t understand the why. Little Anna Rebecca met her great-grandma and great-grandpa Reutter this morning.
    We love you, Uncle Jim & Aunt Ann

  13. Nate & Ruth, Our hearts just ache for you. Karen called and told me. You’ve been in our thoughts and prayers all day, and will continue. Love to you both. George & Verna

  14. Dear Nate and Ruth,
    Nate, I don’t know if you will remember us, but your mom and dad will.
    We are saddend to hear of your heartache. We know how your heart is breaking. We are praying for you all.
    Jesus heals the broken hearted. Give you parents a hug for us. And know you are in our prayers.
    Love in Jesus,
    Joseph & Linda Frazee

  15. I’m so sorry. I don’t even know what to say except that I’ll be thinking of you today for sure. And I promise to pray each time God brings you to mind.

    Father God,
    I just ask that You would surround Nate and Ruth today with family and friends who love. Father, we’re broken today. Father, Please keep breathing Your life into Nate and Ruth today. Please, Father.

  16. Nate & Ruth,
    We cried and sorrow with you! Our thoughts and prayers are with you. We love you, Paul & Cheryl

  17. Nate and Ruth

    It is with great sorrow we write to you. We are so saddened by the loss of little Anna. We will continue to lift you and your families up in prayer knowing God will heal you in His time.

    Dale and Lori

  18. Ruth and Nate I am like everyone else don’t have the words to say except how deeply sorry I am. My prayers have been with you both since I heard. What a lovely blog you wrote about Little Anna. Keep strong, hang onto each other during this time and let the tears fall for healing. God is with you and loves you both very much.
    Toni

  19. Nate and Ruth,

    We are deeply saddened by this news. Our hearts go out to you guys. We’re praying for you that God will be your comfort during this time. We may not always understand, but His plan is perfect. We love you guys.

    Stephen & Jennie

  20. Our hearts ache for you both…………your Crosspoint Community Church support family in Eureka, IL. is praying for the Holy Spirit to give you peace. Hold each other tight, The Plopper Family

  21. Nate & Ruth,

    We were saddened to hear about the loss of Baby Anna. I know you are devastated, we feel the same way. Know that your First Free family is bathing you in prayer. God is sovereign…may you soon know the peace, joy & love that only He can give at this time.

  22. What a huge shock – we are speechless. Please know we are continuously praying for you as you work through this journey of grief.
    All our love, Bruce & Janelle

  23. Nate and Ruth
    We are so sorry to hear about little Anna. We just wanted to let you know you are in our thoughts and prayers.

  24. Dear Nate and Ruth,

    We have been mourning with you in the loss of your precious baby Anna Rebecca. God only knows the heartache you bear. Her presence will be missed after the sweet anticipation of her arrival here on earth. Amazing how many she impacted in so short a time. May you know the comfort of your Father’s arms hold your aching hearts. We love you and are praying for you.

    Aunt Mary and Uncle Curt

  25. Nate & Ruth,

    I can’t tell you how sorry I am. I have no idea what you both must be going through. We all got word yesterday through the church grape vine. I hope you can feel our arms wrapping around you in love and support.

    It is a reminder that we ALL are in His hands and at ALL times. I pray for your strength during this difficult time as you grieve the loss of your precious little one.

    My thoughts, prayers, and best wishes are with you.

    Love you guys,

    Kirk

  26. Nate,

    I am really sorry to hear about this. I cannot put my thoughts into words now. Anissa and I will be talking to God about this, I wish I could give you a hug.

    Brett

  27. Nate and Ruth
    We are so sorry to hear what has happened, and it is very hard to come up with words of comfort at such a time. She is such a beautiful little girl. Ira and I lost a child before full term and it is very hard. I do believe someday we will see our children. When we get to heaven they will be there to take us by the hand and walk with us there with perfect peace forever and never any loss again. Our prayers are with you both. And this may sound different but thank God for God, this life and the sufferings that can be experienced can only be handled by knowing God and his Son Jesus!
    Collins family

  28. We are praying for you guys. May you continue to feel God’s love and comfort today and in the days to come. We are so sorry.

  29. When my dad tragically died people tried to comfort us and sometimes what they said actually hurt us even more. But we could feel the prayers of people and so I understand what you’re feeling. I’ve cried and cried and not slept in the night just crying out for you and interceding for you that God will heal you Himself and give you His presence in a way that you’ve never known before. And now I’m praying that Ruth will feel better and that this infection will be stopped, in the Name of Jesus. I love you, Ruth, with all my heart, and I’ve already used your story several times to encourage people that our life is fragile and with Anna going to Heaven eternity is in our face once again, we can live our lives in total obedience and surrender to the Lord. I love you!!!

  30. The Denver church (CoAveBibleChurch) will continue to pray. May God hold you close to His heart during this time…

  31. Nate and Ruth,

    We are praying for you. I cannot imagine the loss that you feel. Three years ago, when Emma was born early, the pain that the uncertainty of her progress brought was almost to much to bear.

    We will be asking our Church to pray with you also.

  32. Nate and Ruth,

    I love both of you. There’s really only one thing I can do, and that is to interceed, interceed, interceed on your behalf. I’m so grateful that our Lord, Jesus, understands your pain and is right there with you.

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  34. Dear Ruth and Nate,

    I’m praying for your recovery and healing, Ruth, and for comfort, strength and encouragement as you both walk through these very deep waters. May the love of the Lord draw you ever close to one another.
    I pray, too, for all family and friends who are suffering from this great loss, as well. My heart is with you all, even though I’ve never met you in person. I look forward to meeting precious Anna
    Rebecca, along with her great-Grandma and Grandpa Huber and many more of your beloved family members in heaven someday.

  35. Tears just flow as I look upon your beautiful Anna Rebecca and I rejoice she’s “safe in the arms of Jesus.” But your arms are empty and that’s a lot to bear. So I join the others in prayer for both of you believing in His grace to carry you through. “Be still, and know that I am God….” Psa. 46:10. Loving thoughts, Dee

  36. Our hearts join yours in sorrow. Our eyes flow with tears. But you can just feel the presence of God houvering over you right now. This life has so, so many unexpected turns in the road; all we can do is say, “Blessed be the name of the Lord.”

  37. Nate, my heart goes out both of you. It brought back so many memories for me and I was a crying while reading about Anna mess because I have been in your shoes. When I lost Caitlyn due to my waters breaking early and holding my one pound baby girl and having to go home empty handed is really hard and I often asked God Why did this happen.Was it something I did? We must always put our trust in God and you two cling to each other.My prayers go out to both of you as you try and move past this difficult time.
    Robin(Nathan and Eric Tran’s mom)

  38. Ruth & Nate, I am so sorry for the loss of your sweet Anna. I am praying for all of you to be held in our Father’s arms, even as you held little Anna in yours.
    PS I visited you in Santarem 15 years ago & have kept in contact with Jeff & Becky)

  39. We are sorry to learn about Anna. So we extend our sympathy and will hold you up in prayer. We cannot imagine what it would be like to lose a full term baby. We also pray that Ruth will soon be well.

  40. Nate, I just randomly came across your blog and read your sad news. My heart is breaking for you and your wife as I read about your precious daughter. You will be in my prayers.

  41. We are weeping with you and praying God will be a source of comfort and peace as you mourn the loss of your baby girl. “Weeping may last for a night but joy comes in the morning…” Much love to you both. We will continue to pray for Ruth’s recovery and that the God of all comfort will keep you close to His heart in the days ahead.

  42. We were so very saddened to hear of your loss, and are praying that God would sit beside you and envelop you in his everlasting arms of mercy and compassion. I remember holding Ruth as a baby, and as I see the picture of you holding your sweet Anna Rebecca I know that your hope will not be diminished, but strengthened in His time.

    God bless you both, and keep your hearts close to Him. We grieve with you.

    Love,

    John & Karla Schlaefli

  43. I just opened the email this morning and am in complete shock. I am so sorry for your loss. Just know that my love and prayers are with you both right now and in this time of grief. This journey of faith that we are on is not meant to be done alone, and know that we are all interceding for you.

    Love,
    Jed

  44. Dear Ruth & Nate!
    We continue to ask God to keep comforting you and filling you with the certainty of His presence, love and care at all times. You are much loved, Colleen

  45. Queridos, Nate and Ruth,

    So para voces saberem que meu amor e minhas oracoes esta com voces, estamos juntos nesse tempo dificil, como a familia de Cristo, devemos nos alegrar com aqueles que se alegram, e chorar com aqueles que choram, mas nosso confianca e que “A GRACA DO SENHOR NOS BASTA” eu creio que a graca do Senhor esta sobre os seus coracoes. Continuem sendo forte no Senhor e na forca do seu Poder. Com muito amor. Vanda for the Kamletz

  46. Dear Nate & Ruth & Grandparents:

    As Grandparent, we have walked in your shoes twice over with two babies. Through it all, it was a privilege to have the very presence of the Lord each step of the way. Our prayers are with you. God make His face to Shine Upon each of you. C. Green

  47. Our dear Ruth & Nate,
    We are at a loss to convey our thoughts to you on the temporary loss of your dear Anna Rebecca. We, too, were heartbroken, and mourned with you. But how great is the Father’s love, that transcends our deepest grief. So we can rejoice that Ruth is still with us, and God’s grace has been more than sufficient for all our needs. We send you our love.
    Grandma Sarah & Grandpa Joe

  48. Dear Nate and Ruth
    May Jesus’ love and grace fill you both as you walk through this difficult time holding His hand tightly. Your little daughter Anna is beautiful, now in the arms of Jesus.
    Our prayers join those of many who love you.
    Bob and Judy Roth

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